Bah, deadline crunch... this weekend is drawing near as is the KSNM99 at 8pm.. i have... 21 of 99 seals.

Guess i'm going to have to suck it up and buy Utsusemi: Ni for now and farm later to make up the 350k, will help out alot with farming.. given it takes a full 5 seconds to cast Utsusemi: Ichi and it only holds me safe for 3 attacks where Ni gives me 5 shadows in 2 seconds.

As of this morning working in Cape Terrigan to burn up my Ani ring since i didn't get to finish it last night in a party. 45 Blm now.

Though I'm in class now, logged out to the main page so the band wouldn't time out while i was away. Will resume when i get back.

Lets see..
Farming: Now until Dyna (Saturday 4pm)
Dynamis: Takes 3 hours
Farming: After Dyna til time for KSNM
KSNM99: Will probably take 8hours, a little less than last time. (Starts at 8pm)

So much to do.. so little time.. -splodes-

Over and done.

Thief finally hit 75 a bit ago, haven't really been on to document my progress though. A Crystaline Phropechy has peeked my interest as well has the Chains of Promothia quest line. I've been trying to get the Holla, Dem, and Mea Promyvions out of the way but every attempt we've seen to fail due to human error or lack of recollections. Either way i'm sure we'll get it soon, even if i have to dual box the whole thing.. which i hope i don't because that would take a reallly really long time to get 4 other accounts to 30 with appropriate jobs. Anyways.. Blm is on the move now, sitting at 44 for the time being though i think it will be there for a while until Besieged 2k is over and Spencer and myself complete A Crystaline Phropechy.

Hit 70 inventory spaces, only 2 more Gobbie bag quest left.. though i still need to do my RSE.. meh i'll get around to it eventually. Never a moment without anything to do in Vana!

Determination burns more so to reach 70 and beyond that.
Though the not so far off milestone accompanies much equipment that must be obtained. The Thief's Knife for one, giving Treasure Hunter +1 tis quite the desired item - The Optical Hat as well, giving +10 Evasion, Accuracy, and Ranged Accuracy - Then the infaous Blau Dolch or Azoth~ both being amazing Daggers for one to use.

Still only half way to 69.. after a session in Zi'Tah for a few days i'm sure that the extreme distance of these will not be so far off.

Adding to a bit ago since i got cut off.

Thankfully Final Fantasy XI is updating now, well almost finished thankfully and it shouldn't be all that much longer until i'll be able to get on. Haven't been able to get on since.. Wednesday night and thats rather upsetting to be honest, I hope everything is alright.

{still tired)

Back from the conference and everything but now time for some relaxing FFXI =P I'm 7k tnl til 68 and hoping for 70 before i return home to be honest.

Peace&Love.

Alright so i can't move blogs like i wanted to so... from here on out this is mainly Final Fantasy XI.. with a bit of randomness inbetween o.o

I'm hoping to be able to get on tonight, since i don't have to stay after Japan club since the majority of the club is at OMGcon right now, and still out of town.
70 is looking nice, well if things permit, i haven't had such luck the past couple nights.
mew?

Bah i blacked out last night, didn't get a chance to do anything, let alone hang out with Squire or anyone at all. I suck at life. -.-

Portfolio done and all.

But i still feel kinda annoyed for some reason. I don't know if its something i did or.. what exactly, but no one is really talking to me, and all acting fairly distant.Really is stressful, anyone else ever had this happen? When everyone is entirely avoiding you and won't give you any reason as to why? I haven't felt this way since i first moved here and everyone was spazzing out calling me a communist. People are stupid i guess.. I've given thought to even question why i blog on here, just to let people know whats going on with me, or am i just using this as a little diary type to so a girl can get all of her emotion out.

Going to organise my account now, seperte each into different blogs, one partaining to FinalFantasy and gaming matters, another to my life or general, and i'm guessing one more for when i feel like pursuing after politics or just plain ranting.

~

Vinder Fra En Ensom Grav!!! =[

I freaking swear

Today is not my day, at all.

The first period of the day i couldn't remember english for the life of me, then about the time i did time was almost up to work on portfolios, i'm finished with them, and tried to get on FFXI~ But HURRAY!!! Its an update!!! ;_;

Or not

As soon as i posted yesterday my internet went out again, I love time warner =]]] but anyways.. seriously i'm going to get on soon. Here at school taking care of some portfolio work but almost finished. Anyone miss me at all? Or am i wasting my breath and energy typing?

So i've been out again for a while.

Recent events of my lovely internet service provider disconnecting and not coming back on til today has really made me weekend of spring break suck pretty hard. Well given the fact that running down the highway with no pants on at 2am from the cops with a random friend, having to jump into a field and hide.. gah so much. i'll include it all later but now is for some needed FFXI time and to catch up with people.

Peace&Love

Getting the most random impulses.

out of no where, I feeling like being bitchy.. though i am somewhat unable to be due to partial sleep deprivation.. though Nortons 360 is annoying me.. adly by eating allof my system resoucres... RARRR CTRL+SHIFT+KILL!!

help me! ;.;

While I wait

For PlayOnline to load up, i'm listening to MyChemicalRomance for the first time in.. wow i can't even recall, but three cheers for sweet revenge. Today has been fairly uneventful, got stuck helping my dad clean up his shop because his lazy co-worker called in sick.. AGAIN!

Anyone up for some Final Fantasy XI tonight? I need something to occupy myself.. like serious, and after the Tornado warning earlier.. i'm fairly strung out. Could really use a nap, or.. i dunno something.

I lack text.. much text...

Comment and give me something to talk about, as I sit as a 64 Thf for the time being, trying to find a decent Exp party. Cheers everyone.


-Fei

I don't really..

..think that i posted anything on the 27th, nope, but i haven't slept yet so this still counts as then, regardless of time now @.@; 

Not all that much to write about really, just another annoying day in this small town, i consider it small even though its thr 3rd largest city in this forsaken state... but then in again in some cases, it has been a fairly interesting day *cough * cough* -makes gestures at certain people-*cough*cough* I'm terribly sorry about that, i've been coughing all day and it persist no matter what I try.

Subway is a good place to stop by and have a bit to eat, i had a 6 inch veggie sub at about 4 this afternoon which was 12 hours ago, and i'm still not hungry, only cost me 2.42 too i was like o.o wow and i got all i could on it too, well.. minus mayo x.x blech.  Uhm.. the Taj Mahal just vanished... nope.. nope still there, nevermind everyone, false alarm. I am a bit sleepy though.. but its too late sleep is not an option.. GET BACK TO THA CHOPAH!! No idea where that came from honestly.. i Blame Duke Nukem if anyone, though he is awesome >.> 

Distractions distractions.. this night is full of them, isn't that right Squire? <.< ARBY'S SERVICE IS HORRIBLE!!  I sat in a car with my dad and his girlfriend waiting for their order in silence for over an hour, i left the radio off because i know if i turned the thing on there would be an argument.. so i was bored for a long while, when they finally brought the order out to us it was cold and wrong, but i said thanks -takes food and drives off- was not in the mood to deal with that, wanting to get home for my own reasons. 

SAD BUT TRUUUUUUUE! Gah since i played that stupid demo that has been stuck in my head, though i could out perform Metallica in some aspects.. they are decaying faster than.. well something that decays very fast, i was going to say like a body in the jungle but.. that sounds bit creepy. 

Yeah... i just mentioned Metallica, I am out of things to talk about, still not sleep but i think i will stay up all day today and see what i can do, probably pass out.. yeah more than likely, i can feel the weight of my eyes now. And there is my stomach being stupid,  ow >.<; think i'll take that as a go away signal so i'll be back on in a couple hours. 

-Peace and love

Is it still up?

Supposed to be a scheduled outage Blogspot says but I'm still here O_O 

Anyways though, not all that much to report on today, I'm on sping break so.. whos ready to run topless down some beaches!!! I for one am not! haha.. i bet i had some of you going there for a moment. A full 10 days of freedom.. sheesh what am i going to? I'm open for your suggestions as you should post them below.  Planning to attempt to go somewhere, but think i might be stuck here locally, not sure just yet. Keeping with the news, it is apparent that Kevin Cosner is not a jew, but indeed Atheist. I have no idea honestly, but it seemed like something to make conversation about. Why don't we all just do the time warp?

Final Fantasy XI time~ Unless someone needs me to do some mindless task.. but if not its Exp or Farming time back in the forsaken Zi`Tah.. oh and i need to reply to that comment, I almost forgot.  

Much love and peace everyone ^.^

So i heard some things..

Not really, but it makes a good story.. And it works for America, so hey why not?

#import rant

Something I found rather interesting, is how the Nazi officers aprehended after World War II were treated, in contrast to how U.S. officers who did near the same thing in more recent years. 

Being not of American origin i'm always looked down upon, as is my Motherland here in the U.S. just because most are close-minded. 

      Getting to my main point here though.  At the Nuremberg Trials the 24 captured Nazi officers were put on trial for "Unspeakable Crimes Against Humanity." The Officer's rebutle was that they were just following their orders, regardless of their personal opinion. This was true in most cases because during the take over by the Nazi party, and 10 to 1 you were given 2 options, and one involved a gun against your head. Many didn't agree with what they were going to the people during the Holocaust, but they went along with it; the majority of nazi troops were under the influence of drugs such as cocaine and heroin, thus helping them stay awake all hours of the day and night, as well to help them tolerate the horrendus task they were assigned to do. 

Hearing the Nazi's officers side of the story changes things doesn't it? Not really, you know why? Their German, and according to Allied propaganda all things German are EVIL! 

With this trial helped derive the Geneva Convention, which ultimatly made it clear to all that in war you are responsible for your own actions. This new found principle used the Nuremburg Trials to make an example and to make itself known, though not all of the officers were sentenced to death the appearent message was clear. 

Moving to more present day~ Well kinda.

::Vietnam::

U.S. Generals were given orders to move into the villages and destroy all resistance they encoutered. Interpretted to wipe everything from the ground up -- burning, destroying, pillaging, leveling, killing and obliterating everything they came across. So many innocents were killed in this sense-less war, at the hands of both United States and Northern Korea. 

::Middle East::

Less in more recent years, but still present in military history was the same type of thing but in nations like Iraq and Afghanistan. The U.S. was to move in and clean up towns, but in some occasions this included the killing of innocent men - women - and children as a "safety precation."

These men who carried out the orders to shoot on sight, taking down civilians as well; how are they different from thos 24 Nazi officers who were put on trial at Nuremburg? In a sense of magnitude, some would argue it is not to the magnitude of that in which the Holocaust was, or some may argue that they had a 'just cause' because they were don't what was right, more or less what the were ORDERED to do. Don't you think that just because you don't like someone they are not a person? A human being just like yourself? Don't they have beleifs as well? Maybe they thought what they were doing was right, or maybe they were just following orders.

A life is a life, innocent blood shed is a sad factor of conflict, but isn't one life equal to all those thousands who we're killed wrongly in previous happenings? We know that the men who did run these missions and murdered those innocent people were not put on trial, but decorated with military honor. Maybe it should have been someone else that need be judged that day, but it wasn't. I personally think that maybe the U.S. so called "War Heroes" should be put on trial for their murders.. but hey thats just my opinion, what do I matter?

I'm not a Nazi, so don't call me one, I just think that the officers tried at Nuremburg were given an unfair trial. There is an answer that is so simple behind all of this that always rules true in politics though it may not true in reality and that is "America is never wrong or at fault, regardless of events that have taken place."

Well.. i'm glad i got that out of my system, I just hope that someone feels the same way i do about that.

Something else that annoyed me.. more than severly. In the U.S. history books, the Battle of Stallingrad is always looked at as a hopeless struggle that the Russians barely pulled out of.. thats wrong all wrong. It was planned that they we're going to let the Nazi army come in and take over parts of Stallingrad, letting them get over-zealous as they waited for winter. While the Russians were waiting for the Nazis to arrive they moved all of the war supplies out of the city, and destroyed what factories they could before their arrival. THIS WAS PLANNED! There was no final push for survival, when the winter hit, the Nazis were completely unprepared, as the Red Army surrounded Stallingrad, cutting off all supplylines into the city, and starved the Nazi Army out, moving in at the same time wiping them out~ So don't play it off as Russia being weak, we made the push back to Berlin afterall while the other Allied forces sat out to prevent casualties. U.S. forces and the Red Army met up at the river outside of Berlin, then making the final advance into the German capital after Russia had destoryed the city's defenses. Everyone had their part in World War II, there was no super hero, so get over it America. 

#rant.exit

Alright.. so i'm done with that.. Today.. wasn't a very good day, chest pains and such. Along with competing against the RMT in FFXI to farm some freaking Boyhada Moss and Tree Cuttings, there are 23 spawn points in the area.. SHARE! Spring break approaches.. I need something to do, getting my Thf to 75 is a must regardless of events that may take place.

What i would really like ...is a hug. Honestly that would make all my problems go away for today, or hearing someone mew, that would be cute. <3>

Almost forgot.. not really.

In addition to the already fairly bad day yesterday, i didn't get a chance to add this in and i don't exactly feel like just revising the other one and puting this bit in. 

Leaving third block yesterday [Advanced 3D Art] I tossed my bag onto my shoulder and proceeded to back up to let someone pass me. When i backed up right arm, was pressed into a CNC EPS Foam cutter (heats up to 700 fahrenheit) which happened to be plugged in... So it took me a moment to realize this sizzle sound i was hearing was my own flesh being cut into, i felt a tingle but didn't think anything about it at first. When I pulled away, i head a 'twang' to it as it snapped out of my arm, but the sudden motion made it snap back and strike my arm again, leaving a 'Y' shape on my elbow. ; . ; 

Now for a post about today. lol

Downtime

Well, being in the hospital took me out of comission for a while, heart pains Friday night put me in the Emergency Room until about 2am Saturday morning. In my 8 hour stay i had 21 vials of blood taken, 2 chest x-rays, put on an EKG along with monitors, and my MRI results from last Tuesday pulled when i went to Louisville because they lack the expertise here. Anyways -- After all of that mess they said that though i'm having pains they have no idea what is causing it. My chest mass seems to be an invalid thing to consider though it is the only logial thing that could be interfering with my heart. [Mass is about the size of a John Grisham novel, over the right ventricle going just past the Superior and Inferior Vena Cava.] Enough on that subject though, I don't want to bore you to sleep with medical information. 

Can anyone reccomend a reputable Cardiologist?

Final Fantasy XI Update: Thf is moving progressivly towards 75, I'm halfway to 64 for the time being, seeking for a party as i farm beast bloods in The Sanctuary of Zi`tah. If you need a duo partner to 75 - let me know, i'm working on leveling several jobs and will gladly match up with you to work our way up. 

Bad day has been bad. Oh look a boy in a Queen shirt, he must be the Mr Fahrenheit I hear so much about.. wow.. i didn't just say that. Boredom must be setting in as I occupy the school's network, doing malicious things.. they think anyways.

Made this earlier today, hope you like it.

Muahaha!

Restarting~

I got lazy, as does most everyone now and again. 

Doing a bit of Endgame on Final Fantasy, normally fun but Dynamis-Windurst is boring. ;_;

Not all that much to say today, just kind of laid back. 

Going for an MRI tommorrow in Louisville, getting my chest looked at for what the doctors suspect to be the source of my chest pains to be where the muscle of my heart has actually been dissolving. I forget the term for it, since i'm not all here at the moment, but yeah.

Wow, because of Broly's smart move to not flash when he voked the Megaboss, he also pulled 13 other happy stones that delightfully crushed our blissful faces into nothing; wiping the entire instance of our Alliance, and our hope of beating Windurst gone. >_<  Bam- And we're out of Dynamis. On a happy note i'm alive! (After only dying 4 times..) Now for some campaign ^.^

Oh oh, I also zombie. <3